Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Off To Puerto Rico
I'm finally all packed except for the things I'll need tomorrow morning. My bags are stuffed to the gills, although I'll be lighter coming back as I'm bringing some gifts for Mia.
It's been a busy couple of days getting myself organized both at home AND at work. Sometimes it's easier not to leave, but then we'd never have any fun, would we?
I was very lucky today. My daughter in law, Ronna called out of the blue and asked if I had time to have lunch with her and the kids. I was swamped, but I happily made the time. I was feeling a little sad because I hadn't seen a lot of her over the holidays. She has a large family, and it's hard to fit it all in. I had imagined that I wasn't as much fun as her family, and on and on. It's terrible what your insecurities will do to you. We had a nice but hectic lunch. (Lunching with toddlers, you know) But I had so much fun just being with Lexi and Matthew, and being able to visit a bit with Ronna. As we were packing the kids into the car, I gave her a hug and she started to cry. !!! She told me that she was sad because she hadn't seen much of me and now I was leaving and it was almost time for her to go home. My heart just overflowed with love for this sweet girl. In one sentence she absolutely made my day. I felt loved, and needed. And all of those nagging insecure voices in my head? Gone. Vanished. This was a good lesson for me not to jump to conclusions. Ever. And to have more confidence in myself. Always. It's a lesson I seem to have to learn over and over again, but I'm sure I'm not alone. So take it from me: don't let that mean little voice in your head tell your heart that you're less than what you'd like to be. Today my heart got a huge boost, a late Christmas present. Not only that, but Lexi let me give her many kisses, and Matthew gave me a huge smile and a cheery wave goodbye. I'm already planning my next trip to Denver, and all of the fun Ronna and I will have with the kids.
But first things first. Tomorrow its Puerto Rico and Katie and Zach and Mia and Hayden. I'm looking forward to sweet little girls and warm sunny beaches. And some girl talk with my daughter. 5:00AM is going to come early, however, so I'm off to bed. So much sweetness in my life today.