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Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Four Eyes For Now

Can you believe that my eye is STILL a problem?  Last Friday I called the optometrist to tell him it wasn't feeling any better - in fact, it was a little worse.  He had me come in then, instead of waiting for Saturday morning.  He took a look, threw up his hands, and sent me across the street to an ophthalmologist who, luckily, was able to take me on a Friday afternoon.  They put dye into it.  They put numbing drops into it (which felt really good, by the way) and he said "Hmmmm..." a lot.  Apparently, the antibiotic drops I'd been using for the past two days were about the strongest available, and my eyes had, in fact, gotten worse on them.  He prescribed another round of that one, plus two others.  Basically, I was/am using an antibiotic drop of one kind or another around the clock.

It's finally starting to heal.  Today is the first day in a week that I haven't felt like there was sand in my eye.  The first day the right eye hasn't been swollen.  The specialist told me yesterday he'd been afraid last Friday that he was going to have to put me in the hospital for a cornea scraping.  I don't know what that is.  I don't want to know.  Ever.  But he was happy about the improvement.  He did waggle his finger at me and tell me definitely, positively NO CONTACTS and NO MAKEUP.  Sweet.  I think he told me the hospital story so I would mind him.  It worked.

Sadly, I am going down to San Diego (La Jolla) to a medical conference tomorrow.  For 3 days.  Three.Long.Days. without contacts or makeup.  Luckily, it will be just a bunch of cardiologists and nurses who couldn't care less what I look like, or even who I am.  I was really hoping to lose the Coke bottle specs just because I can't see as well with them as I can with contacts, but I'll be good.  It will mostly be me sitting in a large conference room all day with these people, listening to lectures I don't really understand, checking Facebook and email occasionally.  A lunch break.  A dinner with all of my new friends.  Repeat the next two days.  And L to snuggle up with at day's end.

Because L will be sneaking down with me.  He will be able to enjoy the pool and amenities, soak up the lovely San Diego weather, and basically enjoy himself.  All while I'm trapped in a hospital conference room.  But I'm grateful that I don't have to drive myself down there.  My eyesight isn't all that good with glasses - a little too much nearsightedness, combined with astigmatism makes for a combo that's hard to correct, so I don't like driving when I'm not familiar with the area.    And I don't think he minds at all.  He's very self reliant, the weather will be stellar, and he won't have me to hold him back.  San Diego Zoo?  Maybe.  The beach?  Probably.  Pool?  Most definitely.  I'll be jealous, that's for sure.

I had a great Mother's Day.  I heard from every one of the kids, and even one of the spouses, Autumn, sent me a personal text.  It was great.  Katie arranged with L to surprise me with a beautiful lavender orchid.  And L served me breakfast in bed, and made the best dinner for us.  That evening we went over to Mom and Dad's and had dessert with them while we visited away.  It was a treat to see my dad looking so much healthier, with his appetite much improved.  And there's nothing - NOTHING - he loves more that dessert.  He's so thin, no one said a word when he had more.  Made me glad, is what it made me.  His hair is growing back, and his color is better.

Mom seemed happy to have other people to talk to besides Dad.  I think this has been a long, hard haul for her - a different kind of difficult for her, but just as hard on her as on Dad.  I'm hoping to see her freed up a bit over the next few months.  Able to get out and away with her friends.  More out and about with Dad.  Less movies and dinners at home, avoiding germs.  Summer will hopefully be a good time for them.  She hasn't really complained.  She's done her part with patient willingness.  I am honored to be her daughter and learn from her example of grace under pressure.  It's hard to have your world completely rearranged for a year or so, but her complaints were rare and small.  I'm hoping this next year will be a year of feeling better, and maybe bring a little travel that they've been wanting to do.  I know Dad has his heart set on a Panama Canal cruise.

So that's my week in a nutshell.  It's time for more eyedrops and a little bit of shutting them to rest.  (Really - doctor's orders!)  A little wash, a little packing up and preparing for the next few days.  When I see you next, I hope to have fully functioning eyes.  Because I'm getting really tired of dropping $40 every time I have to go to the doctor's to have them checked.


  1. Hi, dear karen! Hmmmm... (Sorry, had to.) Gosh, I'm so sorry your eye is still on the blink. (That didn't come out right.) I sincerely hope the remedy has now been found and that you will improve day by day during your upcoming conference. I am thrilled to know that your dad is looking better these days and eating well. Those are good signs and I hope he can start traveling with your mother again soon. Please take good care of yourself. I know that L will do all he can to assist you in your recovery. Blessings, dear friend!

  2. GAH! How frustrating about your eyes! And I don't think I've ever heard about cornea scraping. The very thought makes me nauseous.

    Enjoy San Diego!

  3. I just finished a 3 week stint of "no contacts" - IT.WAS.AWFUL. but, I could wear makeup. So glad your eyes is getting well and it is also "feeling" better too. Rock those Nerd glasses, GF!! That's what I did!

  4. Wow! I'm so glad your eyes are starting to get better. That must be one major infection. I'm so glad you had a nice Mother's Day.


  5. You are beautiful and those glasses don't detract from that. It would drive me nuts not to wear make up. And CORNEA SCRAPING??? Good grief- that sounds awful!

  6. Yeah, I don't ever want to find out what a cornea scraping is either. Ewww. I think the glasses look cute. Have a good trip.

  7. Most "scrapings" don't sound very good. Cornea scraping has to be on the top of the list!

    I'm sure, yes, that the last months have been hard on your mom.... the patient gets attention and care much of the time but the caregiver endures a lot of emotional stress.... Glad she had a good day too and lots of love from her daughter!

    Hope you have a good week....

  8. This brings back a slew of bad memories when Ben had an eye infection when he was five. I'm so glad you're mending. Listen to the dr!

  9. Nope No Cornea Scraping...ugh, eek and ewww...just for a few words it conjures up! Hope this is doing the trick and your eyes are on the mend. Your trip sounds like a fun break, L will be having more fun than you I suppose but those evenings will be super!
    Great news about your Dad's well being, and I am sure you are all so relieved.

    Hugs and have a great trip...and your glasses are SOOOO glam!

  10. Must be very frustrating but at least it's improving thank goodness!! I have never had an eye issue (knock on wood) but I know from friends of mine that it can be a real pain in the rear.

  11. Take care of those peepers! I should go to the conference for you..I might understand what's going on and you and L could just enjoy the weekend! I love your glasses, they look great on you! I would be bummed without makeup though..I'm not as cute as you!

  12. Hey, you look CUTE in glasses. But I'm so, so sorry about your eye. This has been the pits!! And I know how hard it is to go from contacts to glasses. I've never seen clearly since I had to quit wearing contacts due to dry eye issues.

    Glad your mother's day was fun, and I'm so happy to hear that things are looking up for your dad. Hope they can have a little enjoyment out of life now, as they have certainly earned it!

    Have fun with L at your conference!


  13. Egads, a cornea scraping?
    I've been having trouble with a twitching eye for weeks. Praying to God it doesn't come down to that!

    I'm sorry you've been suffering, Karen! The story of your Dad's recovery is very uplifting. I'm so happy that he's feeling better and able to enjoy the good stuff....

    Have a happy weekend, despite the work. xo


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